It hurts me to the core that countless babies are aborted after prenatal diagnosis of SB. It is incredibly hard not to take the abortions personally. I feel so connected to each child, because at one point, I was in their shoes, waiting to be born, and trusting my parents with my life. I didn’t know it yet, but I was.
These children do not yet have a voice, and do not have a vote in what happens to them, so I’ve decided to advocate. If I could go back to my pregnant mother and my father on my date of diagnosis (actually my birthday) knowing what I know now about all the good and bad that life has thrown me, I’d say this.
Mom and Dad,
Please keep me. I know it will be hard. I know there will be a lot of work for you to do. I also know it will be worth it. I know there will be countless tears, and up-all-nights, and worries, and pain. I also know there will be times you know you’ve made the right decision. You’ll know it when I grab your finger with my chubby little hand on the day I come into your world. You’ll know it when I give you sloppy baby kisses and shoot you a toothless, goofy grin accompanied with my sweet baby giggle. You’ll know it when I call you Mommy/Daddy for the first time. You’ll know it when I tell you I love you THIS BIG! You’ll know it when I go to school and make my first friend who sees past my disability and just wants to play. You’ll know you made the right choice when I bring a boy/girl home to meet you. <—Or maybe this is when you’ll realize you’ve made a colossal mistake! You’ll know it when I graduate high school and tell you I’m leaving to make it on my own in the world. You’ll know it when I bring home a man/woman and tell you, “He/She loves me, and we’re going to make a life together.” You’ll know you did the right thing when you watch me commit my life to this person and trust them with my heart, like I trusted you for so long. And you’ll know it when you see your first grandchild. Then you’ll know that the really tough decision you made all those years ago was the ONLY choice. Mom and Dad, please keep me. I have a lot to show you, and we have a ton to accomplish! Let me show you! We’ll do it together! We’re stronger than we know!